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Everyone’s journey is different. If your demons don’t look like mine that doesn’t mean that they are lesser demons. There is a demon, one that follows me like a ghost. One that I have avoided acknoweldging for a long time. By acknowledging it, it loses its power over me. I have always pushed myself outside of my comfort zone physically but have been reluctant to do so mentally and emotionally for a long time. In an effort to grow as a conscious human being and not just a meat basket I have begun to delve deeper into myself and push that...

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Fallacy #2: Why do I find myself in a perpetual existential crisis? Everyone else seems to be getting along fine.Reality: I am not a special snowflake. Once the primal requirements of food, water, shelter, and companionship were met humans looked up to the stars and asked a series of questions that we have been grappling with collectively ever since: where am I, who am I, what am I, and where am I? The first thing I did when I started asking myself these questions was look to the past for a blueprint. Human beings are not the most physical advanced or...

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I have grown disgusted by the gross misuse of social media platforms and the subsequent psychological turmoil it puts people in. There is a large population, and they almost exclusively are extremely popular, who create an ideal version of themselves through social media. Their followers, not able to interact with them daily and see them for the pieces of shit they actually are, are led to believe that this perfectly happy, toned, wealthy, sexy life is the standard. THAT IS A FUCKING LIE.  In order to tear this charade apart, I’m going to start with myself. The following series of...

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Coming back from Afghanistan, surfing saved my life about as many times that the ocean tried to take it. I didn’t realize it then but it is more than an active meditation, it served as an allegory for how to overcome hardship, how to be present in the moment when times become less turbulent and seem stagnant, and how to take advantage of momentum when it’s afforded to you. Entering the ocean and that initial shock of cold water on your back is much like how I imagine a child feels entering this world. Equal parts amazing and scary. That...

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I urge all of us to take a step back from our dis-eases. Whether it’s Crohn’s, RA, bulimia, anorexia, cancer, depression or the man cold. It does not define you. Let’s pursue health. Let’s be athletes, instead of patients.  I had an awesome conversation with a fellow crohnie today. It started when I saw that he put in his bio “former Crohn’s patient”. Curious, I decided I should probably slide in his DM and was pleasantly surprised when he responded quickly. John Vella (Johnny.bodybuilder) had Crohn’s disease and it was crushing him. Medications, surgery, fatigue, all things people with autoimmune...

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